Monday, February 20, 2012

I was Charmed! (Kena jampi!)

This is the part of me that only certain people know of. MO is one of them. Midget is the other. And Din and Fique. This is where I jot down my thoughts, my feelings. And right now, I feel exposed. Why, you may ask? I've just told a colleague of this blog! Damn it! I hope she keeps to her words... This is part of my sanctuary.

Let me jot down what transpired. It all started last week. A colleague, let's call her M (as in M of 007). She emailed me last week, telling me that she wanted to do a video clip on my profile. This was what she wrote:

" As part of the new company website being developed, we’ve been asked by CEO to include a few individual staff profiles in the form of 30 sec videos. We’re going to start with 2-3 first, then put more up to populate the website as time passes and the website is in regular use.

We’d really like to feature you as one of the pilot profiles on the website. If you are agreeable, could I steal an hour of your time to have a conversation with you about yourself in order to get some ideas as to how we might want to approach your profile?"

And I replied, "Let’s discuss this."

So, we went to lunch today. I actually wanted to discuss with her if it is a good idea to feature me in the video. But, alas, it wasn't to be!

She went straight to the offensive and asked me questions on my background, my aspirations for the company and her probing questions were tactful. By the end of the "discussion" she stripped me bare! Damn!

And yes, she's quite a looker and a charmer... That was it! She charmed me! I was charmed! Let me leave you with this song by Alison Moyet...


Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Shuffling the Mortal Coil

I've moved on. Shuffling the mortal coil. I have regrets, a few of them. Life has to go on, I supposed. I bury myself with work. It's all work now, almost 24/7. And family, in between the work and the traveling that I do. Yes, my current work requires me to travel quite a lot these days. What the heck, I just want to get away from my regrets. Work, travel, will do just fine.

Bumped into Midget a few months back. She didn't acknowledge. Did she notice? I don't know. Served me right for being a coward that I was. And still am.

Received a call from Tasha last month. To inform me that she's getting married soon. I wished her all the best. Then I hung up. Went back to work in a vain attempt to forget.

MO buzzed me last week. Arranged lunch with her. Almost couldn't make it (or was I just making excuses?). She looked gorgeous as usual. We reminisced about the past. I realised, to my despair, the wound is still fresh. At least the one in me.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Little Famous ME!

I'm just so proud today. No, more like elated. I was browsing through some blogs when I was mentioned. Actually, my Gtalk status that was mentioned. Here it is: http://tajudinms.blogspot.com/2009/01/elect-electron-electric-electricity.html. Cool, eh? Hahaha!

Talk about being mentioned on the net, a couple of weeks ago, a colleague told me that the clients we are currently working with "google" our names. Seriously, they went onto Google and search our names! So, I tried googling my name. And walla! I found 40 hits with my name in it! Not bad for someone who is as irrelevant as me! Hehehe! Frankly, most of the hits are from Facebook. But the hits that I'm proud of are those that have my name as the editor of publications and books and magazines! Bwahahaha!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Berangan lagi

Aku berangan akan ada pemerintah kita yang sebegini. Aku juga berangan ada pemerintah kita yang baca cerita ni dan terbuka hati dia hendak jadi pemerintah yang mulia...

A Ruler is the Servant of the People:
by Muhammad Yakub Khan
Taken from: The Golden Deeds of Islam


It was a summer night. A refreshing breeze was gently playing about and pretty little stars were twinkling above. And when, after a restless day of excessive heat, man and bird and beast were all taking sweet rest, one lonely figure could be seen moving about the streets of the town of Madinah. This was the man the Muslims had elected to be their king.

In Islam, a leader of people is supposed to be the servant of the people, and as was usual, this king of Islam was out that night to ascertain for himself the welfare of his people. When at the outskirts of the town with the star-bedecked firmament above him, his thoughts went up to the great God Who had made these. Thus musing upon God’s greatness and beauty, he went on till he was quite a long way from the town. All of a sudden, in the dark of night, his eyes fell on a flame of fire at a distance. Spurred on by curiosity, he approached the light and after a while there loomed out what appeared to be a small tent. Drawing closer, he found a Bedouin seated in front of the tent, his face buried in his hands and a camel standing nearby. The Bedouin was lost in thought and took no notice of this nocturnal visitor.

"Assalamu ‘Alaikum!" said the visitor at last, to wake the Bedouin from his reverie, but to no effect. The visitor repeated the salutation, yet received no reply. After a third time, the Bedouin, taking him for a wayfarer or a beggar, sternly told him to be off and not to worry him.

"Why, brother? What is the trouble with you?" asked the visitor, not minding the rebuff in the least.

"Don’t you bore me," shouted the Bedouin. "Haven’t I once told you to clear off?" The visitor insisted on knowing what the matter was with him. At this, the Bedouin jumped to his feet to fetch his sword from inside his tent. "If you don’t want to lose your head," he said, "be off with you. It seems you must be a highwayman out on your game."

"No brother," replied the visitor gently. "I am no highwayman. Nor am I a wayfarer or a beggar. I belong to Madinah. I earn my living by working for others. I live in the town and have come out just for a stroll and seeing this fire in the wilderness, I was attracted here. I was afraid you are in trouble. What can I do for you?"

"Whose slave are you, then?" asked the Bedouin.

"I am a slave of the Muslims. My profession is to work for them," the visitor replied.

"What has brought you here?" enquired the Bedouin.

"All I want to know is the trouble that keeps you here in the desert in such perplexity," replied the visitor, taking his seat by the Bedouin. As he did so, he heard a painful cry from inside the tent – the cry of a woman.

"Why, brother? Who is crying with pain?" asked the visitor.

"It is my wife," replied the Bedouin. "We were coming from a long distance when her time came. I am a poor man and could not afford to take her to a town to engage a midwife so I stopped here in the desert. She is in great distress now. Please pray that God may help her in this desert place."

"Don’t worry about it in the least," replied the visitor. "I know a midwife and will shortly be back to you along with her."

"Wait!" said the Bedouin. "Don’t fetch a midwife. I have no money to pay her."

"Don’t worry on that account either," replied the visitor. "She will want no remuneration. Besides, she will be a great help to your wife."

It was past midnight when the visitor returned to his house.. His wife was still up, waiting for him. Finding that her husband looked distressed, she asked him what was the matter. The husband told her the Bedouin’s story and asked her if she would help a fellow-woman in time of need. The wife was as good a Muslim as the husband; she said she was prepared to start that very moment.

"But they look very poor," said the husband. "Is there anything to eat that we might take for them?"

Wife: "Your own dinner is all that is left."

Husband: "Anything more?"

Wife: "Some goat’s milk."

Husband: "Anything else?"

Wife: "Some flour and some olive oil."

Husband: "Anything more?"

Wife: "By God, nothing else."

Husband: "Well, then, have all these things ready. I am going to saddle the camel. We must be quick."

Wife: "But won’t you have your dinner?"

Husband: "God knows if they have had any food at all since morning."

Wife: "Then do take a little milk."

Husband: "That poor woman would want it.. Hurry up! They must be very anxious. Take a lamp with you."

In a moment, the camel was ready and they started with all the provisions they had in their house. In a short while they were at the Bedouin’s tent.

Addressing the Bedouin, the visitor said: "Please permit my wife to go in to render whatever help she can."

"It is extremely kind of you but I don’t know how to repay you. I don’t even have so much as a meal," replied the Bedouin.

"No question of payment; just permit my wife in," said the visitor.

While the wife went in, the visitor opened the bag of provisions he had brought with him. Taking his own dinner out, he served it to the Bedouin and asked him to help himself. The Bedouin said he must join too, but as the food was barely enough for one man, the visitor excused himself and the Bedouin had a hearty meal. When he had finished, they entered into a friendly conversation.

Bedouin: "Are you a native of Madinah?"

Visitor: "No, my birthplace is Makkah."

Bedouin: "Why did you leave Makkah?"

Visitor: "I came here along with my master."

Bedouin: "Has your master set you free?"

Visitor: "He has put me to the service of Muslims."

Bedouin: "Have you seen the Prophet’s time?"

Visitor: "Yes, I had that privilege too."

Bedouin: "Have you been in the Prophet’s company?"

Visitor: "O yes! Hundreds of times.’

Bedouin: "What a fortunate fellow! Then surely you must tell me how the Prophet lived and what he taught."

Visitor: "The Prophet lived a simple life. He wore plain clothes and ate simple food. He was very keen on cleanliness. He rose very early and first thing in the morning, he would thoroughly clean his teeth and mouth. He worked very hard and did everything with his own hands. He patched his own clothes, mended his own shoes, milked his own goats, and even swept his own floor. God, he would say, loves the man who earns his living by honest labour. He helped the poor and took care of the orphans and the widows. He stood by the weak, and never did a man in distress come to him who went back disappointed. He respected women. He never despaired. In the face of the greatest obstacles, he always looked his best. He taught that all men are equal. Though the Prophet of God and the King of Arabia, he never looked upon himself as superior to other men. When on his deathbed, he had it announced that if he had offended anyone, he was there ready to suffer the penalty; if he owed anything, he was there to repay it. Such was the Prophet’s life of love and labour; such was his teaching."

Bedouin: "But you have told me nothing about prayers, fasting, pilgrimage, and so many other things which he enjoined."

Visitor: "Yes, he was very particular about prayers. He said when we say our prayers we are taking a spiritual bath and come out cleaner and refreshed. He also said prayers were like a ladder that took us up to a higher and nobler life. But all worship, he said, was meant to enable us to play our part in life worthily. A man, he said, who says his prayers but does not feel for the orphan and the needy, is saying no prayers. Prayers must make us truthful, honest, hardworking, fearless, humble, regular, and above all, loving and of service to our fellow-men. Religion, he taught, meant love of God and service to fellow-men."

Renewed restlessness within the tent disturbed their conversation. For a while there was silence. The Bedouin walked up and down and then resuming his seat by the visitor went on with his questions.

Bedouin: "So you must know Umar, too. They say he is a very harsh man."

Visitor: "Rather! This is indeed a great defect in him."

Bedouin: "I wonder why people elected such a harsh man as their caliph?"

Visitor: "Perhaps they could find no better servant."

Bedouin: "Servant! What do you mean? The caliph must be having the time of his life. He must have plenty of money."

At this moment, a voice from within the tent announced a newcomer.

"Amir ul-Muminin!" said the visitor’s wife. "Congratulate your friend. God has blessed him with a son."

The Bedouin was taken aback at the words, Amir ul-Muminin. His visitor was the caliph, himself. He was overtaken by fear.

"I beg your pardon, Amir ul-Muminin," he said, with fear on his face. "I have been rude to you."

"Don’t worry about that, friend," Umar the Great reassured him. "You are just as much a human being as I am. In the sight of God, there is neither high nor low. We are all equal. God loves those who love His creatures. I have only done my duty, for, in Islam, the leader of a people means the servant of the people."

Maka berangan-anganlah aku...

Friday, June 27, 2008

Sunyi Yang Bising

Sunyi ini bingit
Kena beli lampin Adik!
Kena beli susu Adik!
Kakak hendak buku sekolah baru!

Sunyi ini gegak gempita
Tuan, ikan di peti sudah habis!
Tuan, beras sudah habis!
Tuan, gas untuk dapur sudah habis!

Kutoleh kanan,
Wajah Adik tenang dan aman,
Di bibir Kakak ada senyuman manis,
(mimpi bermain dengan kawan-kawan agaknya)

Pusing kiri, baring mengadap,
Sunyi itu berhiruk-pikuk lagi,
Lalu ku pusing ke kanan,
Damai dan tenang,
Anugerah Tuhan yang tidak ternilai,
Tidurlah, anak-anakku sayang...


Monday, June 23, 2008

What if...

This is an angan-angan blog. This is where I can say, what if. The recent miniscule upheaval from within BN will be interesting IF, the no-confidence motion sees the light of day. Without further ado, let's go with the "what ifs"...

What if, the motion sees the light of day? Would it not be good for the current leadership to gauge its support amongst the BN MPs? Would it not be advantageous to our PM and his supporters? If the motion goes on, wouldn't it show light on the PM's musuh dalam selimut? So the api dalam sekam can be put out early? So the traitors and saboteurs can be brought out in the open? Let us say that the motion goes on. And with the majority support as demonstrated in these few days from BN leaders, I doubt that the PM will lose out. By simple mathematics and calculations (no need for an Oxford or Cambridge or Stanford graduate to deduce that out), BN will win the motion. Unless of course if there is another way of calculation that could make our PM lose out... Even if there is, I am sure the PM's advisors can device a plan not to let that happen.

What if, the motion goes on and our PM lose out (which is impossible! But then again, this is a what if). The baddest thing that can happen is that there will be a change of leadership. Let's see, if that happens, what will happen to the country? Turmoil? Street demonstrations? (like the one that happened in Penang after the CM said he wanted to review NEP?) You think so? In that case, let's kill the motion NOW. We don't want that to happen, do we? As it is, all the street demonstrations that had happened had brought turmoil and uncertainty to the country. The fuel hike is one thing. The raising price of rice is another thing. The economy will take a turn to the worse (as it is, a plan is being devised to fight inflation by raising up the prices! Well thought off. Bet you, the Oxford and Cambridge guys are working hard now!). TV3, Utusan Malaysia, NST will carry news that all these price hikes are due to the street demos and protests!

These are just a couple of thoughts from a layman. I'm sure Che Det's blog will have more things to say. In the meantime, I really wish that the motion will go on and the api dlm sekam and the musuh dalam selimut and the saboteurs and traitors can be revealed!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Selingan

Currently I'm reading a book titled "Tuesdays with Morrie". A very interesting book about life. Yes, the way we run our lives. The book is a story of a dying man and a living man. The former was a professor. The latter was his student. The dying professor was having his last class. And there was only one student, the living man.

The book went on about the professor's look and perspective on life itself. About dying, family, love, money, etc. It's quite good, actually. It makes you look at things from a different perspective. Makes you want to slow down and enjoy life to the fullest. Makes you want to connect more with other individuals that cross your path, either while driving, eating, walking, etc.

If you want, I can lend the book.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Father's Day Blues

Here I am, sitting in a hair salon, waiting on the missus. Yup, it's Father's Day and I'm pampering the missus. Got her a new phone too! Actually the phone is for her birthday, our anniversary and Mother's Day, all-in-one thingy. With the fuel hike, have to lor... Jimat duit. Change lifestyle.

What do I get on Father's Day? A hearty meal and a happy family.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Will start again

I have not been writing for some time now. A lot of things had happened. I've started at my new office (better environment, better pay and more spacious office with a view!). With all those, the work commitments are greater and heavier. Looking back, it had been over six months. Lucky for me this blog is still here.

In six months, a lot of things had happened. The general election, for example. Who would have thought that BN would lose that big, eh? Two months into the results, and BN seemed to be losing the plot. Fast. BN should know that being elected is being asked to serve the people. Not the other way round.

I'm so fed up and tired with all the news in the mainstream media. I've stopped reading and watching them. Let them with their sandiwara. To keep me posted, I read theSun and some blogs.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Of prawns and trust...

I'm back at the office today, the fifth day of Syawal. This must have been the shortest Raya holiday I ever had! And the most hectic too...!

I was back in my hometown on Thursday night and by 3am Friday morning, Ayah and I was up and running to the market to get the freshest food for Hari Raya. The scene and smell of the early market was amazing. I can't remember when was the last time I experienced this emotions (pasar does to me what most women may fail some of the times...)! Unfortunately, in my excitement to go there, I forgot to bring my camera to capture the hustle and bustle of early morning pasar for all eternity.

Our first stop was the seafood section. There were polystyrene and plastic boxes after boxes of prawns, all kinds of fish, squids, crabs, shellfish and whatever the sea can provide. Ayah, being the sifu, went around the stalls, chit chat with the vendors. He knew the pasar well. Within 5 minutes, we were already at the stall that was selling the freshest prawns of the day. I didn't know that the stalls only get their stocks on alternate days.

"Ah Chai! Bukak la ini kotak semua! Apa macam orang mau beli kalau lu takda bukak..." Ayah directed his monologue to a grinning Chinaman. I know Ah Chai. I got to know him when I used to follow Ayah to the pasar. Sometimes, Ayah just sent me to him to get what Ayah had bought but hadn't had the time to bring it back home. But the Ah Chai I was looking at now has aged.

"Aji! Mau masak lenlang pakai ulang ka? Aji pigi la beli itu lomu lulu...nanti wa bukak la...Aji buleh pilih..."

"Daging sudah lama beli la, Chai...kalau beli sekarang, harga mesti naik punya."

"Haiyah! Ok la, ok la...Aji mau yang busat punya ka...?" Ah Chai said something in Chinese, directing one of his boys to open up a box nearest to him, "Ha, Aji...ini semua busat-busat...belapa kilo Aji mau?"

Ayah looked at me. All the while during his friendly exchange with Ah Chai, I was feasting my eyes on the fishes of various kinds. I knew his look. He wanted me to choose the prawns. It was a test of some kind.

"Ah Chai, bukak lagi satu," I said.

"Ini wa punya anak la, Chai," explained Ayah when he saw the questioning look that Ah Chai threw at me.

"Waahhh...! Haiya...! Wa sulah takla kenal la, Aji... Ini lulu latang kedai wa amik ikan punya anak, kan Aji? Haiya! Lu kija KL...wa lama takla jumpa la...Lu kawin pun, wa ala latang punya...!"

"Iya la, Chai. Saya tau," I lied. I wouldn't have recognised him in his good clothes, attending my wedding. But then, there were thousands of people who came to my wedding and I recognised less than half of them.

Ah Chai asked his boys to open up another box. He kept on talking to Ayah. I ignored them. Ayah was testing me and I need full concentration on this. I looked at the prawns. I scooped a handful of them cautiously. I didn't want to get pricked by one of the sharp "horns" straddling at the heads of the prawns. I studied the prawns. The tips of the tails had no blackened marked. They were fresh. The heads were not that big. They looked ok. I studied the earlier opened box. Did the same routine of inspection. The prawns were bigger. I went to another box. By now, Ah Chai's crew had opened up a number of boxes. Some they poured the contents on the square alloy trays that were lying around on the floor of the pasar, some were still in their respective boxes. I studied a few more prawns from different boxes. The first opened box was my choice.

"Chai, berapa sekilo?" I pointed to the box of prawns.

"Wa sulah cakap, ini kotak semua ulang busat2 punya..." he grinned at me. I grinned back. "Lu mau belapa manyak?"

"Bagi tiga kilo la, Chai," I replied with a grin that hadn't left me. I was embarassed, actually, to have questioned his choice of prawns at the first instance. I should have trusted him. When Ah Chai said that the biggest prawns are in there, believe me, they are. I mean, Ah Chai had been supplying prawns and other seafood (fish, crabs, squids, etc) to Ayah for more than two decades. Ayah wouldn't have gone to the same vendor for the past two decades if he doesn't trust the vendor.

I made a silly mistake. Ah Chai would never have the same trust in me as he had in Ayah. He didn't need to say that up front. His grin told me everything. After I've paid Ah Chai, I made my way to the vegetables section. Ayah chatted with Ah Chai for some time. I don't know what transpired between them. Perhaps Ayah explained to him on my "mistrusted" behaviour towards him. Perhaps Ayah apologised. I don't know. But, I bet you that when Ayah isn't around anymore, I don't think I'll get the same treatment from Ah Chai as he gave to Ayah.

Ayah's test wasn't on me choosing the freshest prawns. The test was the trust he had on AH Chai. He tested me whether I trusted him in putting his trust in Ah Chai. Ayah must have been disappointed. Stupid me.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Selamat Hari Raya

I just received a card. A Raya card. So far, this is the only one I've received for this year. Sad? Not really. Considering that I can't even remember when was the last time I sent a Raya card to any of my friends. Yup, I'm not a Raya card person. If cards sent by the company, yes. I've signed a lot of them in my working capacity. Personal Raya card, no.

I blame it on the advancement of technology. Raya cards, for me, had been replaced by e-cards. I used to send e-cards by affiliations. One e-card to all my ex-schoolmates, another for my office mates, one e-card to my acquaintances and so forth. Then, one day, it struck me. The e-cards that I'd been sending were not personalised anymore. Plus, some of them got bounced as well. So, why bother sending? That stopped me from sending any Raya cards whatsoever.

Then again, I guess I'm just too lazy to go through the hassle of getting a card, buy stamps and post it via snail mail... Aren't everybody...?

Post Script (PS): Midget, thank you for the Hari Raya card! Will cherish it till next year! =)

Monday, October 1, 2007

Wisdom towards happiness...

Ask the happy ones by what ways they have won the beloved;
They answer, by sweetness of speech
and the beauty of contentment.
A loaf of dry bread and bare earth for a bed;
In the company of the beloved, is full of happiness.
Let humility be the word,
Resignation the offering,
The tongue be the mint of sweet speech.

Beauty

A thing of beauty is a joy forever,
Its loveliness increaseth: it will never
Pass to nothingness; yet it still keeps
A bower, quiet, for us to sleep and dream and wreathing
a flowery hand to bind us to life
With all the sorrow and cruelty
Of humane dearth.

O Loneliness

O Loneliness! If I thee dwell
Let thee not be of murky and misery

Thy solitude be of chosen, not

Of sorrow and nothingness

Passed by and forgotten; no memories of
Joyfulness and fondness of young and old.


O Loneliness! If I thee dwell

Thou be of memories; happiness and all

As thy life gone by.

Ilusi

Sayangku,
Ku anyam hembusan bayu
Menjadi alas tidur malammu
Lenalah sayang...

Sayangku,
Ku tenun awan berarak
Menjadi selendang hiasan rambutmu
Senyumlah sayang...

Sayangku,
Kupetik bintang timur
Menjadi kerongsang melengkap hiasan
Terimalah sayang...

Di dalam gelap malam,
Kujolok bulan gerhana
Agar terang rinduku
Lalu membentuk angan-angan
Yang membunuh realiti
Langsung tercipta ilusi.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Do you know your neighbour...?

It just struck me, while browsing the internet a moment ago, that we know more about Mawi, Erra, Bard Pitt and other celebrities than we know our neighbour. Isn't it weird? No, not weird. Just plain human nature, I guess. Read more at http://waiterrant.net/?p=24

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Moving to greener pasture...?

I tendered my resignation on Monday morning. I made it a quiet affair. By afternoon, the office was abuzz about my resignation. Talk about HR's private & confidential policy.

Yes, I'm resigning from my current company. It is more of a pulling factor, ie, another company is pulling me to their side. It is not a push factor, ie, I'm not happy with the current company that I feel like being pushed out from the company.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Food, water & nicotine

Met Midget just now. She was wearing this turquoise modern baju kurung. She looked like she had just jumped out from some glamorous women magazine! I saw her walking towards me. The baju kurung modern accentuated the swaying of her hips, her hair brushing across her face and the smile that could launch a thousand ships!

Midget was like a goddess of some sort. She looked wonderfully charming, smiling as she walked to me. It was like in some romantic movie whereby the hero and heroine met after a long separation. If it was a Hindi movie, this shot would be in slow motion with some heart-rendering song in the background. If it was a Malay movie, the characters for this shot would be played by Fasha Sandha or Erra Fazira with Fahrin Ahmad or Rosyam Nor, respectively. I swear it was something similar to that. Or was it just me being disillusion after being deprived of food, water and nicotine for half a day? I would never know...


Thursday, September 20, 2007

Cerpen - Kasih yg tak berbelah bagi...

I got this from an email. Ultramanterror sent it. Dunno who is the author of this short story.

Cerpen - Kasih yg tak berbelah bagi...

" Abg...tlg dtg umah segera, URGENT!!!!! ".

Hakim baca sms sepantas kilat. Terus call balik phone Ina. Tak berjawab. Hakim cemas. Tak pernah Ina hantar sms macam tu. Hakim kelam kabut hidupkan enjin kereta. Dia risaukan kekasih tersayangnya itu. Macam-macam dalam kepalanya waktu itu.

Dia kenal Ina sejak dari zaman kanak-kanak lagi. Keluarganya berjiran dengan keluarga Ina. Dari kecik mereka bermain bersama, kalau main masak-masak dia sanggup bertumbuk dengan Farok semata-mata nak jadi bapak kerana Ina mesti jadi mak. Pernah Farok cakap dia pondan sebab sentiasa bermain dengan Ina waktu Farok dan Saleh ajak main askar-askar. Dia ajak jugak Ina main askar-askar tapi Ina cakap budak pompuan mana boleh main permainan kasar-kasar macam tu. Sebab itulah dia sukakan Ina, lembut, penyayang dan penuh ciri-ciri keperempuanan.

Bila masuk sekolahpun, dia dan Ina berbasikal sama-sama ke sekolah. Walaupun Farok dan Saleh selalu kutuk bila dia tak mahu 'Racing BMX' dengan depa pun dia tak kisah. Dia rela dikutuk oleh kawan-kawan daripada meninggalkan Ina kayuh basikal sorang-sorang. Dia pernah kena belasah sampai lebam bijik mata oleh 'Husin and the gang' yang mengganggu Ina masa darjah tiga. Waktu darjah 4, bila dia mula lancar tulis baca dan tahu berpantun sikit-sikit diapun tulis surat kpd Ina "Pen merah pen biru, U baca I love U' bersama sebijik gula-gula Hacks sebagai hadiah harijadi Ina...gara-gara surat itulah dia mendapat jelingan tajam Mak Ropiah, ibunya Ina yang terjumpa surat itu waktu menyemak buku sekolah Ina.

Mak Ropiah memberitahu hal itu kepada ibunya, dan hasilnya dia terpaksa menadah telinga menahan leteran maknya. Nasib baik bapak tak tahu, kalau tidak naya.

Hakim gelak sorang-sorang waktu teringatkan peristiwa itu tapi fikirannya kembali cemas mengingatkan sms Ina tadi. Sudah hampir 15 kali dia cuba hubungi telefon Ina tapi masih tidak berjawab. Dia amat risau kala itu, fikirannya menelah perkara yang buruk-buruk saja. Dia risau kerana Ina tinggal seorang diri. Rakan serumah Ina, si Baizura sedang bekerja kala itu. Dia tahu, Ina kerja shift pagi tadi, Baizura kerja shift malam. Dia risau kerana panggilannya tidak berjawab. Dia risau takut-takut rumah Ina dimasuki penyamun yang memang menjadi-jadi akhir-akhir ini. Baru-baru ni, ada rumah di kawasan perumahan Ina dimasuki perompak.

Dia berdoa jika rumah Ina dimasuki perompak sekalipun janganlah kekasih hatinya itu diapa-apakan, ambiklah barang apa saja yang mereka mahu asalkan Ina tidak diapa-apakan. Dia berdoa sungguh-sungguh.

Dia bercinta dengan Ina sejak darjah 6 lagi, sejak dia mengerti apa itu baligh bagi seorang laki-laki dan perempuan. Hingga sekarang mereka masih bercinta. Kasihnya pada Ina dah macam Gunung Everest, tak tergoyahkan. Jika tak ada aral melintang hujung tahun ini, keluarganya akan masuk meminang Ina. Ina akan menjadi surinya yang sah dan dia tak mahu apa-apa yang buruk terjadi kepada bakal isterinya itu.

Keretanya memecut laju memasuki kawasan perumahan Ina. Sebaik berhenti di depan rumah Ina Hakim terpa keluar dari kereta. Dia lompat pagar rendah rumah Ina. Dia terpa ke pintu sambil jerit "Ina, Ina". Dia pulas tombol pintu, pintu tak berkunci. Dia betul-betul cemas. Dia ketuk pintu bilik Ina. Dia dengar esakan Ina. Ina menangis. Hakim makin cemas. Dia ketuk lagi pintu bilik Ina sambil panggil nama Ina. Hakim tak boleh bersabar lagi, dia pulas tombol pintu bilik Ina. Juga tak berkunci. Dia masuk bilik Ina, dia tengok Ina teresak-esak atas katil. Rambut Ina kusut masai, Ina tekup muka sambil menangis.

"Ina, apa yang terjadi sayang" Hakim cuba pujuk Ina.

Ina masih dalam sendu. "hu...hu..."

" Ina, cakap kat abang elok-elok, apa yang dah jadi"

"Hu..hu"

Hakim dah tak sabar, dia dah tak peduli walau apapun yang akan keluar dari mulut Ina. Dia akan terima walau seburuk manapun berita yang akan keluar dari mulut Ina. Hakim goncang bahu Ina.

"Ina, what hell is going on...tell me!!" Suara Hakim kuat kali ini. Ina berenti menangis, Ina tatap wajah Hakim, Ina renung mata Hakim.

"Bang, Ina lapar, nak makan nasik. Duit gaji tak masuk lagi. Nanti cukup 27hb Sept nie, Ina bayar blk ek? Tak pun bila Ina dapat Bonus baru bayar."

~The End~

Friday, September 7, 2007

Trust

The toughest thing about the power of trust is that it's very difficult to build and very easy to destroy. The essence of trust building is to emphasize the similarities between you and the people you work with. James Thornton once said “Ultimately, we must learn to trust ourselves. When we do this intimately and intelligently, the world opens full of meaning before us. We find that we ourselves are the doorway to a fathomless understanding of the source of life itself. We need only to learn to walk through it."

The wisest leaders are hardly known
Then come those who are loved
Then those feared
Then those despised

Mistrust begets mistrust
Trust begets accomplishment

Think of your loved ones. They trust you.