Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Happy Teachers' Day (Part 1)

Every year, on 16 May, I tend to become nostalgic. I remember the good old days when I was still in school with no worries to tend to, no concerns to think of, except for the occasional homework and the periodic exams. Life was good right up tell the end of my uni days.

This write up is dedicated to all my teachers, from primary schools to uni. Yup, I didn't attend kindie due to my parents hardship while I was growing up. It was those hard times that strengthened my resolve to study hard and excel. It is going to be a 2-part write, I reckon, because I attended three primary schools, two secondary schools and two unis.

I attended Primary 1 at Government English Primary School (GEPS), Port Dickson, NS (we used to call it Gigi Emak Patuh Satu, GEPS!). The school is now called SK Port Dickson. It was, at that time, situated by the sea. It was nice and breezy. During my time, the school had some expats children studying there as well. One of them was Gary, a tall, lanky kid with blonde hair. He was to be my classmate when I was transferred up after the first term. You see, when I first attended the school, due to the first initial of my name ("N". All my siblings' names start with the initial "N" as well. It was the trend amongst parents then, I guess), I was put into Darjah 1 Orange (or 1B). My class teacher was a fierce middle-aged Malay lady. She once threw my exercise book across the classroom because I had terrible handwriting (I always wanted to be a doctor, you see...). Anyway, I couldn't remember her name. After the first term, I was transferred to Darjah 1 White (or 1A). That was when Gary became my classmate. I remembered I was happier after that. My class teacher was a middle-aged Chinese lady (I think, somehow at that age, all my teachers seemed to be middle-aged to me now! Hahaha!). Her name was Mrs Ong and she taught us English and Mathematics. English had always been one of my favourite subjects. I finished my first year of schooling on stage, receiving the best student award!

The next year, I was put into Darjah 2 White. The class teacher was Cikgu Mustafa. He taught us Maths and BM. He taught us with some humour and simple comedy to get our attention and focus. I remembered him pulling my sideburns once for having a long hair. I had my dad to give me a haircut that evening. The next morning, Cikgu Mustafa called me to the front of the class. He told everyone of how proud he was that I had my haircut! I was elated! ( I was only 8, ok...) He also taught many of us to think on our feet. Everyday, ten minutes before school ended, he would ask all the pupils in the class to pack their things and stand up. Then he would proceed to ask maths questions and whomever could give the first right answer could go off early. I was almost always the first! Hahaha! I said "almost" because after some time, Cikgu Mustafa refused to let me answer a question first until some one else had been given the chance! He was being just and fair, I supposed.

Before I could enter Darjah 3, the family had to move to Melaka. I attended SK Jalan Datuk Palembang, Melaka, then. 

I remember that it was quite a climb for me from the school gate to the main school below!

Due to my exemplary academic records, I was put into Darjah 3A. The class teacher was Mrs Wong. She taught us English. She was not fierce, but stern. Throughout the year, I could only remember that she only hit her pupil once. The pupil in question was me, unfortunately. I could not remember the whole event, but I remembered that I was laughing at a girl classmate (I remember her name, Dahlia) for giving Mrs Wong a wrong answer. Yes, I was a tad cheeky as a 9-year old. Mrs Wong asked me to come to the front of the class and gave me a spanking with the long blackboard ruler! That was the first time I had to come to the front for a wrong reason and that was not to be the last... (Told you I was cheeky, didn't I!).

I entered Darjah 4 with a little trepidation the next year. This was because our class teacher was one Mr Lam. He was notorious to us kids as being a very stern and fierce teacher. Hence, the trepidation to get into Standard 4. Mr Lam taught us English and Maths. He had similar habit to that of Cikgu Mustafa, ie giving us pop quiz. The only difference is that rather than the quiz being done towards the end of school day, it was done at the start of the day! All would rise and stand to attention. He would ask a Maths question and would then point his finger to the unlucky pupil to answer. And he expected the answer to come out from the tongue of the pupil like switching a light! If could not give the right answer, you remain standing. If you were the last person to stand, you would either get extra Maths homework or clean-up the blackboard the whole day! It was Mr Lam's tactics that got me to memorise the times table and the divisions table. Thank you, sir!

My family had to move again the next year, sadly. Well, it was not entirely sad, come to think of it. It was sad because I had to leave the friends I had made in Melaka but it was also good because I would be making new friends with new adventures! We moved to Batu Pahat, Johor December that year.

(to be continued...need to get some work done. Or at least pretend to have some work done. Hehehehe!)

Monday, May 14, 2012

Ramblings

I wrote the poems (or perhaps ramblings?) for Midget. The thought of her swept me into a melancholic stupor during lunch yesterday...

Talk about ramblings... Midget, if you read this, as promised...

Post-Midnight Ramblings (Wed, 18/07/07)
Its way past midnight. 0305 to be exact. Can’t sleep. Tried to watch the latest Grey’s Anatomy…, blooming portable DVD player wouldn’t work. Attempted to read the fourth story in Haruki Murakami’s collection of short stories… gave up after the third page. I must be turning dense. Complete waste of time. A bit embarrassing to admit, but hey, it’s a medical thing… explainable in scientific terms.., my brain cells are… (Horror of Horrors!) s.l.o.w.l.y depleting. I CANNOT UNDERSTAND HIS STORIES!! Urgghhh! Ggrrrr…! The last 3 stories were mentally challenging (to a brain-depleting, action-know-all, suave wannabe, seen this-done that, mum-of-2). Simple writing, good flow of story, easy enough to follow… then came the ending. Utterly hopeless. It just made no sense. Zilt, Zero, Nada. Please someone, be kind enough and lend a hand. Take the book. Read it. Then tell me. Explain the relevance, dot-to-dot. Just put me out of my misery.

Mind’s working overtime. Zig-zagging away with ferocious, unrelentive tenacity. Foresee a short-circuit coming up. Fight-back time then. What’s the point of letting all these thoughts driving you in circles, slowly but surely draining your energy, zapping the last of your strength, eating you up. Take action. Even if it means driving right into a stone wall. At least it all ends.

­On BK
1. It would be funny, if it’s not scary at the same time. What are the chances that you meet someone who gets you, who’s on the same wavelength, whom you can relate to, who makes you laugh, cry, jump, applaud or freak out right on cue? Slim. What about meeting in cyberspace on the first attempt? None. That’ll be my no-brainer, positive answer at any given time. And it’s probably true, if it didn’t actually happen.
2. Married with 2 kids, same boarding school-different states, same legal background, same wicked sense of humour, same demented way on looking at things, same flirtatious over-the-top personalities. That alone could be weird enough, but get this. Same pre-marital lifestyles, also has an ex-fiancee and (also) had a post-marital almost-affair which ended early this year! Gosh! Right to the T. He could be my male version. We could be clones.
3. I’m finding it too bizarre. It’s like I’m terrified of asking, of wanting to know more, because at all times, I already know the answer. And I say, all times. Not more often than not, but Every Single Time. It all started on Skype (that good-for-nothing, silly, troublesome invention), and things spread like wildfire. Chats turned to text messages, and messages turned to meetings. Twice.
4. I can’t get too comfortable. Its Red Alert Danger from the word Go. But do I listen? Do I take heed? Do I exercise all my rational reasons and follow what my head, and not what my heart says? Maybe it’s best if I slip away. Create some distance. He mentioned something about things being on the mend with his better half. That rattled me up. Maybe I turned up at the wrong timing. Me, taking up precious time can’t be all that helpful to their curing process. In fact, it could be detrimental. Fatal.5. How now brown cow? Maybe I should just bask in the glory of the unknown. Take the forsaken path, explore the unexplored. Thing is, it’s clearly written in black and white. The forsaken path is treacherous and conniving. (Why then would it be called ‘forsaken’ – Duhh!). The unexplored terrain has been explored, and it always leads to the painful point of no return… the sad, heart-wrenching point. Facts are crystal clear. Again. How now brown cow? No guts to move on, no balls to move away? Why not use the same stone wall-hitting method? Decide. Take action. Or maybe not. Or maybe… let’s just let him decide...

(It’s the break of dawn. Time to snap out of rambling-mode and perform rightful, functional, expected, robotic duties… Fundamentals, my dear. Fundamentals).

Syabas to the present administration, thus far...


I met a veteran blogger once, way back in 2009. He came with another veteran blogger. Both of them were big-sized dudes. I mean, really big size. We had dinner of steaks and ribs. We talked about the current administration. Mind you, at that time, the current administration just took the baton from the sleepy administration not so long ago. May be about 12 months into administering the country. Both bloggers were and still are blogging on current affairs and politics. One of them is a very long time friend of mine, hence the dinner. Let's just call my blogger friend as Big and his blogger friend that came along as Giant.

During dinner, Giant asked me what do I think of the new PM's economic policies. My answer at that time was, it was still too early for me to give any comments. But, so far, I said, things seem to be turning around. That was when Giant went into his blogging mode, except that rather than writing them down, he was speaking (or rather spitting) them out. His thoughts that is, not his food. Giant said that he can summarise the PM's economic policies into two words - Alphabet Soup! He said so far the PM had only come out with acronyms for his economics policies - NKRA, NKEA, GTP, ETP, etc? What do those acronyms translate to the rakyat? What do a pakcik at a kampong in Johor or Perlis know about those acronyms? Would they alleviate his living? What about the man on the street in KL? What can those acronyms do to him? Prices of petrol is still high. The price of basic necessities have also increased. Giant said that if PM is not careful, not only the rakyat, but members of his party would also go against him. Especially with PM's 1Malaysia concept.

Giant went on and on. By the way, he is a pro-administration blogger. He said, as much as he support the current administration however, if his livelihood do not improve because of some alphabet-soup economic policies, he would not be crossing the dacing anymore in the next election!

That was in 2009. 


Last month, I had a bit of a car problem. My car couldn't start. Had to tow it to the workshop. I was also having a few meetings at the office. So, after towing my grand old Wira to the workshop, I took a cab to the office. The next day, I had to tumpang wifey to her office. And from her office, I took the LRT. Let me tell you, the last time I took the LRT was way back in 2008. I've posted about it in my "change lifestyle, austerity drives and the what nots...". And I also whined about it in my posting "change in the public transport".


So, on that day, with a surrendered feeling of hopelessness, I walked to the LRT station from my wife's office. First thing that I saw was that there was no long queue at the ticketing machines. I looked at my watch, wondering whether I was too late to join the morning office commuters or too early. Alas, I was not. Ok, perhaps there was something happening this morning that I did not know of. Bought a ticket, but lo and behold! It was not a ticket that came out, but a token! I was like, okaaayyy... Must be a new thing. Good new thing, I supposed.

I walked to the escalator to get to the platform. Not many people. Must be something big that is going on this morning, I thought. Then I read the LED display of how much longer the train will arrive. It showed "1 min 42 sec". Didn't I hear the train pulling off the station while I was at the ticketing machine? That was at least a couple of minutes ago. In 2008, I remembered it would be like forever to wait for the next train!


When the train arrived, I was again pleasantly surprised that the carriages were not jam-packed like it used to be in 2008! I arrived at my destination within the stipulated time and when I reached the office, I realised that I couldn't wait to board the LRT on my way home!


All in all, it was to be a whole week that I had to take the LRT. And it was a good one week of public transport to me!


This "new" experience with the LRT got me thinking and discussing with some friends and colleagues. I even dared some of them to take the LRT and when they did, they had the same 'feel-good" experience. It got me thinking that these alphabet-soup policies may be working! It is working for the majority of people, from the farmers at the kampungs to the clerks at the cities.


The way I see them, to the higher ups in life ie, the CEOs, the COOs, the C-suite employees and to a certain extent, even to the middle managers, the alphabet-soups policies may not have much of an impact to them on a personal basis. However, if the impacts are directed to the middle managers and lower, I would dare say that the alphabet-soup policies are working very well!


And I do hope that all these would be translated to better economic growth, more harmonious living and higher living standards. Syabas, YAB PM!

Of commas and apostrophes, the stickler in me

In literature, be it in whatever language, we must have punctuation. Punctuation is not grammar, mind you. It is part of good grammar. Punctuation helps us to pause, take a break from reading and/or writing. Yes, punctuation plays a role in writing too. It helps the writer's mind to pause and take a breather. Punctuation involves the dot or period or full stop, the comma, the exclamation mark, the apostrophe, semicolon, colon and a host of other marks. Each punctuation mark give the reader/writer different pauses, different tones and different meanings, when put in relevant strategic places in a sentence.  It helps the reader to easily understand the sentence, the emotion, the expression that the writer wants to convey


I am rambling about punctuation because I am re-reading (yes, when I didn't buy any books for the month, I'll re-read my older books. It keeps the books felt owned, I supposed) a book which I bought many years ago on punctuation. I do confess that I am a stickler when it comes to punctuation, spelling and/or grammar (not in that order, but close enough). I have told off many lesser beings, the latest was a niece who posted such crudely punctuated sentence and grammar in her FB that I guess she is either now, scared to post any new status or just regretted that she ever befriended me on FB! Hahhaha!

Sorry, Niena, but then again, if you really aspire to be in the legal profession, or any other professional career, I am quite sure you'll need a very good command of English or Bahasa Melayu. That would mean good grammar, correct punctuation  and accurate spelling. :)

Monday, February 20, 2012

I was Charmed! (Kena jampi!)

This is the part of me that only certain people know of. MO is one of them. Midget is the other. And Din and Fique. This is where I jot down my thoughts, my feelings. And right now, I feel exposed. Why, you may ask? I've just told a colleague of this blog! Damn it! I hope she keeps to her words... This is part of my sanctuary.

Let me jot down what transpired. It all started last week. A colleague, let's call her M (as in M of 007). She emailed me last week, telling me that she wanted to do a video clip on my profile. This was what she wrote:

" As part of the new company website being developed, we’ve been asked by CEO to include a few individual staff profiles in the form of 30 sec videos. We’re going to start with 2-3 first, then put more up to populate the website as time passes and the website is in regular use.

We’d really like to feature you as one of the pilot profiles on the website. If you are agreeable, could I steal an hour of your time to have a conversation with you about yourself in order to get some ideas as to how we might want to approach your profile?"

And I replied, "Let’s discuss this."

So, we went to lunch today. I actually wanted to discuss with her if it is a good idea to feature me in the video. But, alas, it wasn't to be!

She went straight to the offensive and asked me questions on my background, my aspirations for the company and her probing questions were tactful. By the end of the "discussion" she stripped me bare! Damn!

And yes, she's quite a looker and a charmer... That was it! She charmed me! I was charmed! Let me leave you with this song by Alison Moyet...


Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Shuffling the Mortal Coil

I've moved on. Shuffling the mortal coil. I have regrets, a few of them. Life has to go on, I supposed. I bury myself with work. It's all work now, almost 24/7. And family, in between the work and the traveling that I do. Yes, my current work requires me to travel quite a lot these days. What the heck, I just want to get away from my regrets. Work, travel, will do just fine.

Bumped into Midget a few months back. She didn't acknowledge. Did she notice? I don't know. Served me right for being a coward that I was. And still am.

Received a call from Tasha last month. To inform me that she's getting married soon. I wished her all the best. Then I hung up. Went back to work in a vain attempt to forget.

MO buzzed me last week. Arranged lunch with her. Almost couldn't make it (or was I just making excuses?). She looked gorgeous as usual. We reminisced about the past. I realised, to my despair, the wound is still fresh. At least the one in me.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Little Famous ME!

I'm just so proud today. No, more like elated. I was browsing through some blogs when I was mentioned. Actually, my Gtalk status that was mentioned. Here it is: http://tajudinms.blogspot.com/2009/01/elect-electron-electric-electricity.html. Cool, eh? Hahaha!

Talk about being mentioned on the net, a couple of weeks ago, a colleague told me that the clients we are currently working with "google" our names. Seriously, they went onto Google and search our names! So, I tried googling my name. And walla! I found 40 hits with my name in it! Not bad for someone who is as irrelevant as me! Hehehe! Frankly, most of the hits are from Facebook. But the hits that I'm proud of are those that have my name as the editor of publications and books and magazines! Bwahahaha!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Berangan lagi

Aku berangan akan ada pemerintah kita yang sebegini. Aku juga berangan ada pemerintah kita yang baca cerita ni dan terbuka hati dia hendak jadi pemerintah yang mulia...

A Ruler is the Servant of the People:
by Muhammad Yakub Khan
Taken from: The Golden Deeds of Islam


It was a summer night. A refreshing breeze was gently playing about and pretty little stars were twinkling above. And when, after a restless day of excessive heat, man and bird and beast were all taking sweet rest, one lonely figure could be seen moving about the streets of the town of Madinah. This was the man the Muslims had elected to be their king.

In Islam, a leader of people is supposed to be the servant of the people, and as was usual, this king of Islam was out that night to ascertain for himself the welfare of his people. When at the outskirts of the town with the star-bedecked firmament above him, his thoughts went up to the great God Who had made these. Thus musing upon God’s greatness and beauty, he went on till he was quite a long way from the town. All of a sudden, in the dark of night, his eyes fell on a flame of fire at a distance. Spurred on by curiosity, he approached the light and after a while there loomed out what appeared to be a small tent. Drawing closer, he found a Bedouin seated in front of the tent, his face buried in his hands and a camel standing nearby. The Bedouin was lost in thought and took no notice of this nocturnal visitor.

"Assalamu ‘Alaikum!" said the visitor at last, to wake the Bedouin from his reverie, but to no effect. The visitor repeated the salutation, yet received no reply. After a third time, the Bedouin, taking him for a wayfarer or a beggar, sternly told him to be off and not to worry him.

"Why, brother? What is the trouble with you?" asked the visitor, not minding the rebuff in the least.

"Don’t you bore me," shouted the Bedouin. "Haven’t I once told you to clear off?" The visitor insisted on knowing what the matter was with him. At this, the Bedouin jumped to his feet to fetch his sword from inside his tent. "If you don’t want to lose your head," he said, "be off with you. It seems you must be a highwayman out on your game."

"No brother," replied the visitor gently. "I am no highwayman. Nor am I a wayfarer or a beggar. I belong to Madinah. I earn my living by working for others. I live in the town and have come out just for a stroll and seeing this fire in the wilderness, I was attracted here. I was afraid you are in trouble. What can I do for you?"

"Whose slave are you, then?" asked the Bedouin.

"I am a slave of the Muslims. My profession is to work for them," the visitor replied.

"What has brought you here?" enquired the Bedouin.

"All I want to know is the trouble that keeps you here in the desert in such perplexity," replied the visitor, taking his seat by the Bedouin. As he did so, he heard a painful cry from inside the tent – the cry of a woman.

"Why, brother? Who is crying with pain?" asked the visitor.

"It is my wife," replied the Bedouin. "We were coming from a long distance when her time came. I am a poor man and could not afford to take her to a town to engage a midwife so I stopped here in the desert. She is in great distress now. Please pray that God may help her in this desert place."

"Don’t worry about it in the least," replied the visitor. "I know a midwife and will shortly be back to you along with her."

"Wait!" said the Bedouin. "Don’t fetch a midwife. I have no money to pay her."

"Don’t worry on that account either," replied the visitor. "She will want no remuneration. Besides, she will be a great help to your wife."

It was past midnight when the visitor returned to his house.. His wife was still up, waiting for him. Finding that her husband looked distressed, she asked him what was the matter. The husband told her the Bedouin’s story and asked her if she would help a fellow-woman in time of need. The wife was as good a Muslim as the husband; she said she was prepared to start that very moment.

"But they look very poor," said the husband. "Is there anything to eat that we might take for them?"

Wife: "Your own dinner is all that is left."

Husband: "Anything more?"

Wife: "Some goat’s milk."

Husband: "Anything else?"

Wife: "Some flour and some olive oil."

Husband: "Anything more?"

Wife: "By God, nothing else."

Husband: "Well, then, have all these things ready. I am going to saddle the camel. We must be quick."

Wife: "But won’t you have your dinner?"

Husband: "God knows if they have had any food at all since morning."

Wife: "Then do take a little milk."

Husband: "That poor woman would want it.. Hurry up! They must be very anxious. Take a lamp with you."

In a moment, the camel was ready and they started with all the provisions they had in their house. In a short while they were at the Bedouin’s tent.

Addressing the Bedouin, the visitor said: "Please permit my wife to go in to render whatever help she can."

"It is extremely kind of you but I don’t know how to repay you. I don’t even have so much as a meal," replied the Bedouin.

"No question of payment; just permit my wife in," said the visitor.

While the wife went in, the visitor opened the bag of provisions he had brought with him. Taking his own dinner out, he served it to the Bedouin and asked him to help himself. The Bedouin said he must join too, but as the food was barely enough for one man, the visitor excused himself and the Bedouin had a hearty meal. When he had finished, they entered into a friendly conversation.

Bedouin: "Are you a native of Madinah?"

Visitor: "No, my birthplace is Makkah."

Bedouin: "Why did you leave Makkah?"

Visitor: "I came here along with my master."

Bedouin: "Has your master set you free?"

Visitor: "He has put me to the service of Muslims."

Bedouin: "Have you seen the Prophet’s time?"

Visitor: "Yes, I had that privilege too."

Bedouin: "Have you been in the Prophet’s company?"

Visitor: "O yes! Hundreds of times.’

Bedouin: "What a fortunate fellow! Then surely you must tell me how the Prophet lived and what he taught."

Visitor: "The Prophet lived a simple life. He wore plain clothes and ate simple food. He was very keen on cleanliness. He rose very early and first thing in the morning, he would thoroughly clean his teeth and mouth. He worked very hard and did everything with his own hands. He patched his own clothes, mended his own shoes, milked his own goats, and even swept his own floor. God, he would say, loves the man who earns his living by honest labour. He helped the poor and took care of the orphans and the widows. He stood by the weak, and never did a man in distress come to him who went back disappointed. He respected women. He never despaired. In the face of the greatest obstacles, he always looked his best. He taught that all men are equal. Though the Prophet of God and the King of Arabia, he never looked upon himself as superior to other men. When on his deathbed, he had it announced that if he had offended anyone, he was there ready to suffer the penalty; if he owed anything, he was there to repay it. Such was the Prophet’s life of love and labour; such was his teaching."

Bedouin: "But you have told me nothing about prayers, fasting, pilgrimage, and so many other things which he enjoined."

Visitor: "Yes, he was very particular about prayers. He said when we say our prayers we are taking a spiritual bath and come out cleaner and refreshed. He also said prayers were like a ladder that took us up to a higher and nobler life. But all worship, he said, was meant to enable us to play our part in life worthily. A man, he said, who says his prayers but does not feel for the orphan and the needy, is saying no prayers. Prayers must make us truthful, honest, hardworking, fearless, humble, regular, and above all, loving and of service to our fellow-men. Religion, he taught, meant love of God and service to fellow-men."

Renewed restlessness within the tent disturbed their conversation. For a while there was silence. The Bedouin walked up and down and then resuming his seat by the visitor went on with his questions.

Bedouin: "So you must know Umar, too. They say he is a very harsh man."

Visitor: "Rather! This is indeed a great defect in him."

Bedouin: "I wonder why people elected such a harsh man as their caliph?"

Visitor: "Perhaps they could find no better servant."

Bedouin: "Servant! What do you mean? The caliph must be having the time of his life. He must have plenty of money."

At this moment, a voice from within the tent announced a newcomer.

"Amir ul-Muminin!" said the visitor’s wife. "Congratulate your friend. God has blessed him with a son."

The Bedouin was taken aback at the words, Amir ul-Muminin. His visitor was the caliph, himself. He was overtaken by fear.

"I beg your pardon, Amir ul-Muminin," he said, with fear on his face. "I have been rude to you."

"Don’t worry about that, friend," Umar the Great reassured him. "You are just as much a human being as I am. In the sight of God, there is neither high nor low. We are all equal. God loves those who love His creatures. I have only done my duty, for, in Islam, the leader of a people means the servant of the people."

Maka berangan-anganlah aku...

Friday, June 27, 2008

Sunyi Yang Bising

Sunyi ini bingit
Kena beli lampin Adik!
Kena beli susu Adik!
Kakak hendak buku sekolah baru!

Sunyi ini gegak gempita
Tuan, ikan di peti sudah habis!
Tuan, beras sudah habis!
Tuan, gas untuk dapur sudah habis!

Kutoleh kanan,
Wajah Adik tenang dan aman,
Di bibir Kakak ada senyuman manis,
(mimpi bermain dengan kawan-kawan agaknya)

Pusing kiri, baring mengadap,
Sunyi itu berhiruk-pikuk lagi,
Lalu ku pusing ke kanan,
Damai dan tenang,
Anugerah Tuhan yang tidak ternilai,
Tidurlah, anak-anakku sayang...


Monday, June 23, 2008

What if...

This is an angan-angan blog. This is where I can say, what if. The recent miniscule upheaval from within BN will be interesting IF, the no-confidence motion sees the light of day. Without further ado, let's go with the "what ifs"...

What if, the motion sees the light of day? Would it not be good for the current leadership to gauge its support amongst the BN MPs? Would it not be advantageous to our PM and his supporters? If the motion goes on, wouldn't it show light on the PM's musuh dalam selimut? So the api dalam sekam can be put out early? So the traitors and saboteurs can be brought out in the open? Let us say that the motion goes on. And with the majority support as demonstrated in these few days from BN leaders, I doubt that the PM will lose out. By simple mathematics and calculations (no need for an Oxford or Cambridge or Stanford graduate to deduce that out), BN will win the motion. Unless of course if there is another way of calculation that could make our PM lose out... Even if there is, I am sure the PM's advisors can device a plan not to let that happen.

What if, the motion goes on and our PM lose out (which is impossible! But then again, this is a what if). The baddest thing that can happen is that there will be a change of leadership. Let's see, if that happens, what will happen to the country? Turmoil? Street demonstrations? (like the one that happened in Penang after the CM said he wanted to review NEP?) You think so? In that case, let's kill the motion NOW. We don't want that to happen, do we? As it is, all the street demonstrations that had happened had brought turmoil and uncertainty to the country. The fuel hike is one thing. The raising price of rice is another thing. The economy will take a turn to the worse (as it is, a plan is being devised to fight inflation by raising up the prices! Well thought off. Bet you, the Oxford and Cambridge guys are working hard now!). TV3, Utusan Malaysia, NST will carry news that all these price hikes are due to the street demos and protests!

These are just a couple of thoughts from a layman. I'm sure Che Det's blog will have more things to say. In the meantime, I really wish that the motion will go on and the api dlm sekam and the musuh dalam selimut and the saboteurs and traitors can be revealed!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Selingan

Currently I'm reading a book titled "Tuesdays with Morrie". A very interesting book about life. Yes, the way we run our lives. The book is a story of a dying man and a living man. The former was a professor. The latter was his student. The dying professor was having his last class. And there was only one student, the living man.

The book went on about the professor's look and perspective on life itself. About dying, family, love, money, etc. It's quite good, actually. It makes you look at things from a different perspective. Makes you want to slow down and enjoy life to the fullest. Makes you want to connect more with other individuals that cross your path, either while driving, eating, walking, etc.

If you want, I can lend the book.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Father's Day Blues

Here I am, sitting in a hair salon, waiting on the missus. Yup, it's Father's Day and I'm pampering the missus. Got her a new phone too! Actually the phone is for her birthday, our anniversary and Mother's Day, all-in-one thingy. With the fuel hike, have to lor... Jimat duit. Change lifestyle.

What do I get on Father's Day? A hearty meal and a happy family.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Will start again

I have not been writing for some time now. A lot of things had happened. I've started at my new office (better environment, better pay and more spacious office with a view!). With all those, the work commitments are greater and heavier. Looking back, it had been over six months. Lucky for me this blog is still here.

In six months, a lot of things had happened. The general election, for example. Who would have thought that BN would lose that big, eh? Two months into the results, and BN seemed to be losing the plot. Fast. BN should know that being elected is being asked to serve the people. Not the other way round.

I'm so fed up and tired with all the news in the mainstream media. I've stopped reading and watching them. Let them with their sandiwara. To keep me posted, I read theSun and some blogs.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Of prawns and trust...

I'm back at the office today, the fifth day of Syawal. This must have been the shortest Raya holiday I ever had! And the most hectic too...!

I was back in my hometown on Thursday night and by 3am Friday morning, Ayah and I was up and running to the market to get the freshest food for Hari Raya. The scene and smell of the early market was amazing. I can't remember when was the last time I experienced this emotions (pasar does to me what most women may fail some of the times...)! Unfortunately, in my excitement to go there, I forgot to bring my camera to capture the hustle and bustle of early morning pasar for all eternity.

Our first stop was the seafood section. There were polystyrene and plastic boxes after boxes of prawns, all kinds of fish, squids, crabs, shellfish and whatever the sea can provide. Ayah, being the sifu, went around the stalls, chit chat with the vendors. He knew the pasar well. Within 5 minutes, we were already at the stall that was selling the freshest prawns of the day. I didn't know that the stalls only get their stocks on alternate days.

"Ah Chai! Bukak la ini kotak semua! Apa macam orang mau beli kalau lu takda bukak..." Ayah directed his monologue to a grinning Chinaman. I know Ah Chai. I got to know him when I used to follow Ayah to the pasar. Sometimes, Ayah just sent me to him to get what Ayah had bought but hadn't had the time to bring it back home. But the Ah Chai I was looking at now has aged.

"Aji! Mau masak lenlang pakai ulang ka? Aji pigi la beli itu lomu lulu...nanti wa bukak la...Aji buleh pilih..."

"Daging sudah lama beli la, Chai...kalau beli sekarang, harga mesti naik punya."

"Haiyah! Ok la, ok la...Aji mau yang busat punya ka...?" Ah Chai said something in Chinese, directing one of his boys to open up a box nearest to him, "Ha, Aji...ini semua busat-busat...belapa kilo Aji mau?"

Ayah looked at me. All the while during his friendly exchange with Ah Chai, I was feasting my eyes on the fishes of various kinds. I knew his look. He wanted me to choose the prawns. It was a test of some kind.

"Ah Chai, bukak lagi satu," I said.

"Ini wa punya anak la, Chai," explained Ayah when he saw the questioning look that Ah Chai threw at me.

"Waahhh...! Haiya...! Wa sulah takla kenal la, Aji... Ini lulu latang kedai wa amik ikan punya anak, kan Aji? Haiya! Lu kija KL...wa lama takla jumpa la...Lu kawin pun, wa ala latang punya...!"

"Iya la, Chai. Saya tau," I lied. I wouldn't have recognised him in his good clothes, attending my wedding. But then, there were thousands of people who came to my wedding and I recognised less than half of them.

Ah Chai asked his boys to open up another box. He kept on talking to Ayah. I ignored them. Ayah was testing me and I need full concentration on this. I looked at the prawns. I scooped a handful of them cautiously. I didn't want to get pricked by one of the sharp "horns" straddling at the heads of the prawns. I studied the prawns. The tips of the tails had no blackened marked. They were fresh. The heads were not that big. They looked ok. I studied the earlier opened box. Did the same routine of inspection. The prawns were bigger. I went to another box. By now, Ah Chai's crew had opened up a number of boxes. Some they poured the contents on the square alloy trays that were lying around on the floor of the pasar, some were still in their respective boxes. I studied a few more prawns from different boxes. The first opened box was my choice.

"Chai, berapa sekilo?" I pointed to the box of prawns.

"Wa sulah cakap, ini kotak semua ulang busat2 punya..." he grinned at me. I grinned back. "Lu mau belapa manyak?"

"Bagi tiga kilo la, Chai," I replied with a grin that hadn't left me. I was embarassed, actually, to have questioned his choice of prawns at the first instance. I should have trusted him. When Ah Chai said that the biggest prawns are in there, believe me, they are. I mean, Ah Chai had been supplying prawns and other seafood (fish, crabs, squids, etc) to Ayah for more than two decades. Ayah wouldn't have gone to the same vendor for the past two decades if he doesn't trust the vendor.

I made a silly mistake. Ah Chai would never have the same trust in me as he had in Ayah. He didn't need to say that up front. His grin told me everything. After I've paid Ah Chai, I made my way to the vegetables section. Ayah chatted with Ah Chai for some time. I don't know what transpired between them. Perhaps Ayah explained to him on my "mistrusted" behaviour towards him. Perhaps Ayah apologised. I don't know. But, I bet you that when Ayah isn't around anymore, I don't think I'll get the same treatment from Ah Chai as he gave to Ayah.

Ayah's test wasn't on me choosing the freshest prawns. The test was the trust he had on AH Chai. He tested me whether I trusted him in putting his trust in Ah Chai. Ayah must have been disappointed. Stupid me.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Selamat Hari Raya

I just received a card. A Raya card. So far, this is the only one I've received for this year. Sad? Not really. Considering that I can't even remember when was the last time I sent a Raya card to any of my friends. Yup, I'm not a Raya card person. If cards sent by the company, yes. I've signed a lot of them in my working capacity. Personal Raya card, no.

I blame it on the advancement of technology. Raya cards, for me, had been replaced by e-cards. I used to send e-cards by affiliations. One e-card to all my ex-schoolmates, another for my office mates, one e-card to my acquaintances and so forth. Then, one day, it struck me. The e-cards that I'd been sending were not personalised anymore. Plus, some of them got bounced as well. So, why bother sending? That stopped me from sending any Raya cards whatsoever.

Then again, I guess I'm just too lazy to go through the hassle of getting a card, buy stamps and post it via snail mail... Aren't everybody...?

Post Script (PS): Midget, thank you for the Hari Raya card! Will cherish it till next year! =)

Monday, October 1, 2007

Wisdom towards happiness...

Ask the happy ones by what ways they have won the beloved;
They answer, by sweetness of speech
and the beauty of contentment.
A loaf of dry bread and bare earth for a bed;
In the company of the beloved, is full of happiness.
Let humility be the word,
Resignation the offering,
The tongue be the mint of sweet speech.

Beauty

A thing of beauty is a joy forever,
Its loveliness increaseth: it will never
Pass to nothingness; yet it still keeps
A bower, quiet, for us to sleep and dream and wreathing
a flowery hand to bind us to life
With all the sorrow and cruelty
Of humane dearth.

O Loneliness

O Loneliness! If I thee dwell
Let thee not be of murky and misery

Thy solitude be of chosen, not

Of sorrow and nothingness

Passed by and forgotten; no memories of
Joyfulness and fondness of young and old.


O Loneliness! If I thee dwell

Thou be of memories; happiness and all

As thy life gone by.

Ilusi

Sayangku,
Ku anyam hembusan bayu
Menjadi alas tidur malammu
Lenalah sayang...

Sayangku,
Ku tenun awan berarak
Menjadi selendang hiasan rambutmu
Senyumlah sayang...

Sayangku,
Kupetik bintang timur
Menjadi kerongsang melengkap hiasan
Terimalah sayang...

Di dalam gelap malam,
Kujolok bulan gerhana
Agar terang rinduku
Lalu membentuk angan-angan
Yang membunuh realiti
Langsung tercipta ilusi.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Do you know your neighbour...?

It just struck me, while browsing the internet a moment ago, that we know more about Mawi, Erra, Bard Pitt and other celebrities than we know our neighbour. Isn't it weird? No, not weird. Just plain human nature, I guess. Read more at http://waiterrant.net/?p=24